you can only do so much

i love it when i go about the house while everyone else is sleeping. it allows me to be me, silently. this week has been harder for me at work because i’m literally starting from scratch. i had to create new trackers and other files to support the group and to track accurate data of our performance. in other words, i have been burning my ass, typing on my seat with hardly any breaks and yet, i’m still a lot behind on other deliverables. how can this be? if not for the vogue feature and harry keeping my mood up, i would have broken down. leadership is after all about service but i can only do so much. 
so, at 5:00 AM, just as my shift is on its 9th hour, i sigh, look at my unfinished work, pack my bags and drive myself through the silent city. 
i’ve said this and i’m gonna’ say it again — thanks for the support of this blog and for taking the time out to not only check my outfits but also read what i have to say. it means a lot. 
striped top – thrifted
brown leggings – random buy
brown peep-toe platforms – matthews at cmg
rings: black spade – props | round animal print – props
song on my mind: soldier on by the temper trap

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what is normal anyway?

the other day, i posted on facebook that i’m weirded out and i don’t know why. somebody joked, “it’s because you’re a little weird…” which should have been an insult for somebody else but really a compliment for me. you see, i don’t mind being weird just as long as i stand out and am not the same as anyone else. i was born a middle child — 8 years apart from my older sister, charm and 2 years apart from my little sister, aimee. being expected to obey my a-te (big sister) and give chances to aimee, i was forced to think on my own and think of ways to be different from them. so while charm was enjoying her high school life and aimee was outside playing with the kids, i read books and played with my stuffed toys. after school, when i didn’t like to stay and play with friends, i’d go home directly and watch ‘captain planet’ and ‘johnny quest’ on cartoon network. i’d write on my diary and draw clothes. my bed and my room was basically a haven for me. and since i didn’t have anyone else to look up to but my a-te, i listened to the same music she listened to as well. so in 4th grade, while everyone else was into disney songs, i was listening to madonna’s bedtime stories and watching reality bites with winona ryder and ethan hawke (loved that movie!). don’t get me wrong, i was still a typical kid most of the time, but i have always loved to be wrapped up in my own world.  so now, everywhere i go, i can plug into my ipod and just while the world away with my music. 
gizelle is weird. thank you. normal is boring
 striped tee – big sister’s closet
grey pencil skirt – thrifted for only P15 ($0.03)
black strappy heels – so fab
long watch necklace – hk gift shop
work watch – swatch
sunnies – thrifted at carbon

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the ‘barla’ incident

photos (from top clockwise): me, the barlas, mom and gianne frances, me and my cousins – cookie and lilac, mom and dad, my robot necklace
family will always come first for me. when all else fails and the rest of the world abandons me, i can count on my family to be right behind — waiting to catch me. 
last sunday was the christening of my cousin’s baby girl — gianne frances. and i was one of her godmothers. that means more gifts to buy by christmas…haha! i was happy to have spent time with my cousins, especially my favorite cousin, lilac (on the 3rd picture). our age difference is almost 15 years but we just think alike. they call us ‘the barlas‘ after this long, black and bony fish.  
 
 why barla? well, every holy week, we go home to our province in zamboanga del norte and spend time at my grandparent’s house. we take care of the easter breakfast for the church and the ‘carro’ of jesus on his resurrection. while in there, we mostly eat fish for fasting. our late lola (grandma) used to buy this fish called ‘diwit‘ which is so yummy. the ‘diwit‘ is a long and flat fish. one summer, my cousin and i volunteered to shop at the market for dinner. we were so excited to have found ‘diwit‘ at such a cheap price — P60 per kilo. we immediately bought it and were so proud of ourselves. we even bought sweet mangoes for dessert. when we got home, we were scolded by our moms because what we bought is not ‘diwit‘ but barla! they look the same — same shape and length but the barla has almost black scales. the barla is sooo bony that we can barely eat any meat on it. we became the laughing stock of the whole holy week and our relatives couldn’t stop joking about it. LOL.
what about you? tell me of a family blooper you experienced.
striped dress – thrifted | long navy blue top – thrifted | suede belt – big sister’s | 
suede brown wedges with rhinestone details – celine (mom’s gift) | faux monogram bag – thrifted | robot long necklace – APM | bangles – gifts

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the art of thrifting

 
another thrifted find. i know, you must be wondering where i shop. and might be thinking that i just walk in the vintage shop already filled with awesome stuff. i wish! thrifting takes patience and needs a bit of learning. 
i started out at 12 years old and that was before people and fashion magazines labeled thrifting as cool. before, it was a taboo of some sort. we can’t talk about it. as a child, we’d go thrifting at one of the local markets in our province every summer — where people can’t see us! haha! and where most of the cool stuff are. the market is stuffy and the clothes are on bamboo racks and platforms. you’d have to literally rummage through the clothes. mind you, it was super dusty! but the finds are worth it — vintage tees and cute dresses at only P5 – P50 (that’s $0.10 to $1) each. it was always something we looked forward to. 
in college, we’d wake up really early on sundays and go to our local market in Cebu. ukay-ukay (vintage) vendors would all lay their tables and hang their racks everywhere on the streets — this is from thursday evening to sunday. this became our sunday habit. the market is sometimes smelly and muddy, full of sweaty people and noisy. since i was in college, i’d scour for vintage and graphic tees, denim shorts and skirts, long-sleeved shirts and dresses. the prices ranged from P10 – P80 ($0.20 to $1.60). we soon realized though that we were buying more ‘could be’ stuff — stuff that needs altering, fixing or snipping. we’d soon have piles on our sewing machine — waiting to be altered. 
we’ve long let go of our sunday habit and just shop at the nearby vintage stores — air-conditioned and the clothes are properly organized and on hangers. the prices are a bit more expensive than the street kinds at P50 – P200 ($1 to $4) but we don’t have to bear the sweat, smell and grind of the market. not too much alterations are needed too. and i personally have learned something, before buying anything, i need to picture if the item is something i can wear over and over. if it’s just a ‘could be’ or a ‘i could possibly’ item, it’s off of my list. now i can’t wait for the weekend — new stuff at our nearby vintage store!
ps. my dad does the alterations to our dresses. he shortens them, trims the waist, alters our flare jeans to skinnies..LOL. his grandma taught him how to sew. love you dad!
striped dress – thrifted
red flats with chain detail – celine
black leather bag – lil’ sister’s
thin black belt – props
long watch necklace – hk gift shop
gold bangles – from india
layered beaded bracelet – from a friend at P80

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daring to be great

 
i talked to a friend today…and we got to the topic of ‘just going the flow..’ this friend has a ‘go with the flow’ vibe..and doesn’t really make long term goals…when asked why he stayed with a company for a year, all he said was that he stayed just because…and he left because something happened that caused him not to attend work for quite some time…although i am most of the time a happy-go-lucky person and at times, just choose to go with the flow, i cannot stand not being in control of my life… my friend chooses to be mediocre..because if he aims high, he and the people around him have high expectations of him… but i have always chosen to be great… mediocrity for me is just choosing to not make the most out of your life…i have always believed that not trying and not taking risks is not living at all… but that’s just me. and that’s just my friend too.
ps. this is the very first time i’ve worn deep berry lipstick..saw it on my mom’s dresser and tried it out before i asked dad to take photos of me. yes, my dad takes my photos. *wink*

black blazer – linea italia
striped top – thrifted
skinny jeans – chillypapa
strappy heels – so fab!
dog tag – custom-made
rings – blue: props | howlite: dane’s giveaway
sunnies – thrifted

clouds in the sky

 
 
after days of scorching hot weather, we finally got some clouds. i love clouds not because i love gloom but it’s a break from the heat. the only time i love the heat is when i’m at the beach. it’s not a complete beach experience if i can’t get a tan.
so my sister, mom and i went thrifting this morning. i scored around 5 dresses and 2 tops. i’ll soon be wearing them on future posts. on the thrift store though, there was this woman who was always asking people there if what she’s choosing is stylish. what ticked me off was when she approached me and asked me to fit what she chose because she’d like to see if it looks good. and pathetic me cannot say no even when i wanted to. ugggh! it looked good though — a black top with pleated details. and i wish i could have grabbed it from her.
aside from thrifting, we went to the market to buy some veggies and horns for tonight. it’s my first new year not spent with my family — i’m going to be at work! hmmmm… so many changes this year. might do a recap post this weekend. we’ll see. anyway, i have to sleep. so tired. good night!
striped top – thrifted
white tank top – kid’s section
skinny jeans – chillypapa
maryjanes – a gift from my sis
long necklace (reindeer in gun metal) – bubble bee gift shop
gun metal cuffs – props
sterling silver howlite ring – dane’s giveaway

the pirate eye

 
 
 i was supposed to go out saturday night to have dinner with karen but my right eye got swollen that it’s pathetic to even go out with it. i don’t know what caused it. so i stayed in — again! i’m supposed to have regained my social life..haha! my little sister, who was my partner in crime years ago, says i’ve lost my place in the social scene because i always stay in. i guess it comes with age and the “been there, done that” state of mind. i just can’t find drinking and loud music blasting appealing anymore. i’d rather have long massages, peaceful dinners, movies and the occasional road trips.
this is what i wore when we hit the mall yesterday to shop for the gifts i needed to buy. we checked out celine so we can buy the sequined flats i was talking about in the previous post but they no longer had my size… uggghhh! they were supposed to be my mom’s christmas gift for me. i just chose these suede wedge round toe pumps with rhinestone accents. i love it! anyway, it was so funny when i was trying out the shoe because the sales lady looked at my tights and said, “Are you a ballerina?”
i said, “No.”
sales lady: “Oh…but did you come from dance practice?”
i said, “No”
sales lady: “Ahhh… just a trip then.”
striped top with lace detail – thrifted
white shorts – props, sm planet exchange
polka tights – kate torralba, sm dept store
black bow-tie flats – leaveland
long chained necklace – elegant tang dynasty
thin gold belt – props, sm planet exchange
beaded bangle – props, custom made
black bag – mongkok ladies market, hk
glasses – thrifted