ramblings – Page 3 – Girl Gone Cuckoo

make it your own

this may sound cheesy quoting something from a video-game-turned-movie but it is true: “we make our own destiny…” that doesn’t mean that i don’t believe that God has a higher plan for us or that everything happens for a reason because i do. it’s just that the choices we make and the risks we take mold our lives. we cannot just sit on our asses and think that we are victims of our own lives. we have to work hard at making our lives better and only when we fail do we accept that everything happens for a reason. sometimes, failing once should not be something that should discourage us and stop us from trying. if we fail once, it just means that we should do things differently and try again. it is when we fail that we learn of our faults and learn to pick ourselves up.

i am not invincible. no one is (unless superman does exist) but life is too short to be in fear all the time. life is too short to wait for something good to happen to our lives. i say, let’s make it our own — destiny, that is. take risks. fall in love. follow your heart.

ps. meet my ‘beanie’ puppy — louie. he was given by my former manager for christmas and he has been with me through a lot of stressful times and yes, risks.

pale pink polka dress – lil’ sister’s

white bag – lil’ sister’s

white studded sandals – so fab! (a gift from aimee)

dog tag necklace – custom-made

imprinted round necklace – a gift from gelie

bangles – all from props (now in maze, ayala!)

passion over knowledge or vice versa

i was feeling a bit anxious about my recent choice to resign yesterday that i was only able to sleep 3 hours before my shift at 8:00 PM. anxiety meant i needed to talk to someone and just ramble away my issues. sometimes i just write my feelings down but yesterday, i needed a friend. i also have a feeling that these small anxiety attacks would surface every now and then in the days leading up to my resignation and yeah, maybe during my rest. i am after all applying for other jobs outside the call center industry. so i will be needing a friend more often and harry would just have to put up with my mood swings (as always).

i got a chance to talk to my friend, canence, who has always been the one who talked sense or logic to me whenever i am down. we talked about this rut that we’re in and about our plans to resign from our current jobs. i told her that i don’t have a back-up job i can fall to when i resign and that i am scared shitless because i don’t know what to do. she told me that unlike her who doesn’t know what she’s passionate about, it’s good that i am passionate about fashion and that i should pursue it. i told her that i have always been jealous of how she’s getting certified at networking (cisco) and have been expanding her knowledge that she can easily land a job anywhere. i only have my experience to back me up because i graduated with a degree in computer engineering but i wasted my 5 years in college because i can’t remember a thing about what i majored in. know what she told me? she says she feels that her knowledge is just on the surface and have nothing to back it up. well, i have passion, but not have too much knowledge to back it up.

passion over knowledge? or knowledge over passion? what do you think?

a mistake i got to make

i’m already 25 years old and will be turning 26 this august. in the philippines, even when we live in a modern world, that age is still somehow a cause for alarm if we’re not yet settled — whether in our careers, love life or family life. i am not going to lie. i am immensely scared about this leap that i am going to take. i finally talked to our manager today and he gave me this “your-a-woman-who-can-do-great-things” speech and saying that i am almost the next level, that i have worked so hard to succeed in an industry that i am good at. he wanted me to plan out my life in the next 5 years outside the company (or industry) and compare it with a plan inside the company. i smiled with all my courage and said, “i know that i am good at my job but i don’t want to be doing something that i hate for a long time. honestly, i don’t plan to plan for the next month.”

in ‘how i met your mother’ season 1, lily told ted that going to san francisco may be a mistake but it’s a mistake that she has to make and that a bigger mistake would be not being able to find out if it’s a mistake or not. (ted totally got side-tracked over the number of mistakes in the sentence)… i know it’s confusing but i really still do think and feel that i have to do this.

sorry if i am boring you with three successive posts about my plan to leave my current job. it’s been in my mind for the past week — every day for that matter. just wanted to let it all out. thanks for listening. better topics next week, promise. *wink*

black blazer – thrifted

white tank top – abercrombie

striped city shorts – bought from manager’s garage sale

black platforms – forever 21

silver cuffs – thrifted at carbon

gun-metal layered bracelet – thrifted at carbon

gun-metal reindeer necklace – bubble bee tea house

dog tags – custom-made

aviators – mongkok, hk

let go of high school already!

one supervisor for 40 agents is just plain crazy.

i feel like this has been the longest 2 days of my life.

i wish that people in their 20’s would already let go of high school. stop with the gossiping, stop with the talking behind people’s backs and most of all, stop with the bullying. snide remarks, raising of the eyebrows and rolling of the eyes is all too pubescent and it’s stupid. i am here to manage professionals and not be a high school guidance counselor. just start doing your jobs. the last i heard, people who constantly look at other people’s work and not their own can never be successful.

there. i’m sorry. just had to rant (yet again). thanks for letting me. now i can move on to my weekend.

i have great things to look forward to this weekend. dinner with old co-workers for the promotion of a former manager. my 1st monthsary with harry — by the time we roll over a year, we start counting back to 1 month (just to spice things up and feel like a couple in their honeymoon stage again…LOL). a night of blogging and catching up on your blogs (yes, YOU!) and thrifting with my mom and sister on monday morning. (yey!)

hope everyone has a great weekend!

thanks for the lovely comments on my previous post.

i’m seeing that i already have 91 followers since i turned this personal blog into

a fashion & lifestyle blog last november 2009.

with that, i might (99.99% chance) do a 100th follower give-away!

clue: it’s going to be a few of my favorite things. *wink*

ruffled top – thrifted

white shorts (yes, i did wear one) – props

white studded sandals – a gift from lil’ sis

vintage suede bag – from bangkok

long watch necklace – hk gift shop

sunnies – thrifted at carbon