how do you know?

at 17 years old, how do you know what you want to do for the rest of your life? and if you do, how do you know how to get there? unlike some lucky people who know that they want to be accountants upon graduating high school and decide to take up accountancy or who know they want to be architects and decide to take up architecture, i only knew that i wanted to be involved in the arts — sketching, drawing, painting but that i wanted to have a ‘stable’ job. you know how they make you take up an aptitude and interest test before graduation? well, my interest was on the creative side but my aptitude lead to engineering. apparently, i was good at math and at being logical. it took me by surprise.
my mom wanted me to take up nursing but i knew in my mind that i could be greater so i asked if i can pursue medicine. it was impossible at that time because we couldn’t afford it. my dad wanted me to take up accountancy because it was practical and that it would have what he took up when he was young, rather than taking up dentistry. taking up fine arts at that time was out of the question because my mom and dad feared that i couldn’t get a ‘stable’ and high-paying job after graduation. with a confused state of mind, i took up computer engineering, trusting my aptitude results.
the first two years in college was actually enjoyable for me but on the the 3rd year, i immediately found out that it was never something i wanted to do after i graduate. we were already on the year where we had to pick majors and we were making projects dealing with electronics. i picked ‘networking’ to major on because well, i was on the internet most of the time and was very interested in web designing. i had two more years to go before i graduate college and it was too late to take up another course and waste my parent’s money. so i pursued the course half-heartedly. i remember asking my mom one afternoon at church, “mom, what if i don’t want to be a computer engineer? all i can picture myself is owning a boutique.” my mom said, “well, that’s what you can do after you earn enough money to start your own business.”
on 2006 i graduated with a right to put up an ‘Engr.’ before my name. but here i am, fast forward to 2010, not a practicing engineer but i can finally tell my mom, “i am finally there mom. i am going to put up shop!”
knitted shirt dress – thrifted (have had this for 5 years!)
white tank top – metro kids’ section (sequined by me)
brown leggings – random
brown platform heels – matthews at CMG
owl necklace – thrifted at carbon
rings: dark auburn stone – thrifted at carbon | black square – props
piles of bangles: faux gold plastic ones – gifted from india | wooden – props


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23 thoughts on “how do you know?

  1. it's almost impossible to know exactly where you'll end up career-wise, especially when you're undecided or there are people trying to sway your decision. i'm so glad you know what you're passionate about now and can head towards where you want to be! 🙂

    by the way, this outfit looks so comfortable! i love the sweater.

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  2. I am 17 now, and have no idea what I'm going to do in life. I'd like to sit at home and write all day, hence the English major. But I'm also a music major in piano performance… decisions decisions decisions. So cool that you graduated with an engineering degree, but I could definitely see you in a boutique! And visit it too.

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  3. I remember being in high school, and just thinking, how the heck was i supposed to plan out the rest of my life right now?! everything can change! i know that i've changed a lot. but i'm glad that you are finally pursuing what you love 🙂 i know you will be successful!

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  4. Just pursue what your heart desires. As for my case, things are already laid out on me, it's like a carpet I just need to walk on, and then I'm there. Goodluck with your endeavors, you're 17, believe me things will be clearer when you reach 21. (:

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  5. Weee Gizelle! You're out to get there! I'm happy for you!

    Though I somehow disagree with the previous comment (by Eunice) saying that things are clearer when you reach 21, I believe, people in nature are never satisfied. Of course, we will all do what our hearts desire, but maybe 5-10 years later, we would want to pursue another endeavor.

    Just keep on going dear!

    hearts,
    Melai of Style and Soul

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  6. i'm lovin the accessories, gizelle!

    on the 2 month sabbatical..scared is not the term…more of worried coz I don't know if i'll be able to survive without much money on my hands. i hope my plans push through though and everything works out for the best. hoping for the same for you too!

    🙂

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  7. I still have no idea what I want to do with my life and I'm turning 24 this month. Shit, I can hardly make up my mind regarding what I want for dinner. You are definitely one step ahead of me!

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  8. Love your outfit! So comfortable, great statement rings.
    I'm happy to know you have find your passion. Good luck with organizing it!
    Kisses!

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  9. Aww, I'm 17 and i'm taking up Journalism when I know in my heart that I really really want to take up a pre-med course. Then I thought maybe I'll learn to love where I am now. Hehe!

    Anyway, good luck! 🙂 <3

    <3 Camille

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  10. gizele, i think i see the picture of me in you… i studied biotechnology and now, i've graduated, i don't feel like taking that biotechnology stuff as my job/career… i found myself more interested in fashion, but i don't have the chance to learn it… and here i am, in the middle of confusing situation…
    but a career is what we really like to do.. how if i will never find that great ideal idea…?

    anyway love ur top… very much!!!

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  11. i took chemical engineering for two years too but had to shift to nursing because of my mom. 😦 one day, i am gonna be a chemical engineer. haha. either here or in the philippines. 😉 or a boutique owner like you!

    ps: kudos to you for being able to wear that knit sweater dress in pinas. i would have died in that. i hate summer.

    xoxo Mode Junkie

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  12. this is one of my favourite outfits from you girl! so cute and flattering 🙂

    and when i was 17 i thought i had it all figured out. Now 4 years later I feel the same as you: overwhelmed, pressured. It's so hard but i'm learning not to think so much about the future and take each day as it comes and try to make the best out of it. All will work out 🙂

    xo

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  13. wow, owl necklace & bangles in the philippines also there ….
    in Indonesia became trendster …
    ^ ^ hhahahahha fashion in Indonesia and the Philippines was not much different…

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