this heartache

  
this was taken last sunday when i decided to suprise harry after his shift (at 9:00 AM) for breakfast at one of the retaurants in I.T. Park. decided to bring along snickers so he won’t grow up ignorant from the world since he’s mostly couped up in the room. he can’t go out because our old dog is so mean and possessive of our attention (especially my dad’s) that we’re afraid she’d attack him. being a sunday morning, the park was serene, perfect for just hanging out and chilling. i sat by the pond for a while and enjoyed being alone for a few minutes. those are one of my favorite moments — when i can just be alone and be allowed to think. 
so this weekend, harry and i watched one of the local movies ‘miss you like crazy‘… i’ve always loved the tandem of john lloyd cruz and bea alonzo on-screen (don’t like her too much anywhere else..haha!) the movie was predictable but still interesting. i loved the concept. i loved the scenes. i love the conversations and the lines. and it brought about certain emotions that i’ve suppressed for a while. 
i miss my best friend so damn much. it’s harder breaking up with a friend than with a boyfriend. you’d take years of friendship and just throw it away. she was my soulmate. we could be together and not say anything but know how we are feeling. we had a falling out almost 3 years ago and my heart is still aching, everyday. although i have harry, there are times when i’d feel so damn alone because i lost the only person who can understand me without asking why. i have tried opening up to my other friends but it’s just different. she’s in hawaii and i’m here. miles apart and we can’t bridge this gap that we have. 
so now i have woken up with very swollen eyes, having cried myself to sleep last night.
polka mini-dress – thrifted
black cropped cardigan – thrifted
brown sandals – prima donna
brown leather bag – thrifted
bangles: orange polka – a gift | pink polka – DIY | bronze – props
vintage car necklace – manalili
sunnies – thrifted at carbon

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46 thoughts on “this heartache

  1. how do you always manage to look so cute in your pictures? i'm in love with those polka-dots.
    that's so sweet of you to surprise harry and snickers is adorable in these shots 🙂
    on the sadder topic, i do agree that breaking up with a friend is harder to deal with and heal from compared to breaking up with a boyfriend. feel better, gizelle, and keep a smile on that face. life can always surprise you when you least expect it. xx

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  2. i'm sorry to hear that you have lost your best friend.. it is so distracting!! hoping you get well soon and realize that you other friends are worth trusting and relying on!

    you look so lovely! i like the dress very much – it's so optimistic!

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  3. What a super cute dress… 🙂

    And, I'm sorry to hear aout your and your best friend. 😦 Me and my BFF had a falling out about 8 years ago. We didn't speak for a year and a half. (we also known eachother since we were 6, we're now both 27).. anyway when we finally spoke and sorrys were spoken, we had to rebuild our friendship.. and today it's the strongest friendship I have. I call her my soulmate #2 (my hubby is my #1)… and I love her to death! Maybe you and your friend are just “on a break”.. I hope things will work out for you 🙂

    Take care sweetie.

    xx Love & Aloha

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  4. awww i feel you there.. there's nothing like the love us girls share with our girlfriends.. its a different bond jud.. makes me miss my girls 😦

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  5. aww saying goodbye to a friend is so tough – hang in there sweetie! that pup is adorable btw and so is your dotted minidress 🙂

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  6. G! summer na summer ha:) gotta love:) may gani maka cardigan paka! init kaayo. mabuang ko. as in i want to go out in my underwear na jud. hehe.

    bitaw lets discuss that blogger meet up soon! lets invite, isabeau, dredreveries, kinsa pa uban? watchuthink?

    <3
    eden

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  7. That's so sad to hear. Could you build bridges, even if you are far apart? Nothing is worth losing a friend over.

    If it cheers you up, you look wonderful today. So sunkissed and happy.

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  8. haven't have the time to watch miss you like crazy. but i sure will… hopefully i'll watch it twice. first with the bf so he'll learn some relationship lessons (although he hates mushy tagalog movies LOL) and second with the girlfriends for all the KILIG moments. LOL

    having a thing for polka dots, i sure want to raid your closet! love that dress. 🙂

    http://dredreveries.blogspot.com

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  9. Cutest little dress ever! Makes me want to eat many different colored scoops of ice cream, mmm. Is that the intent of your blog, huuuh? 'Cause it works. :D!

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  10. FABULOUS little romper
    gorgeous darling
    as always, thanks for sharing
    and thanks for the lovely comments

    -cma
    COSMICaroline.blogspot.com

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  11. Cute dress (:
    I wish I could take my dogs out to the park but they are insane and don't know how to walk on a leash. They only try to run :/
    Aw, about your friend, that's happened to me before. It's amazing how you can be so close with someone and then suddenly, it's like you're strangers.

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  12. You are so right, Gizelle … breaking up with a friend is the worse heartbreak there is! Hope your heart is healing … hugs!

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  13. you look adorable and you shout out spring/summer with your outfit 🙂 i love it..

    awww im sorry to hear bout you n your bestfriend. im scared with the idea of ever loosing my bestfriends too but i guess, there is a reason for why it happened. 🙂 cheer up my dear, sayang ang ganda 🙂 hehehe. and im sure you will find someone 🙂

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  14. Beautiful outfit! I love the polka dots 😉 Awww that little puppy is so silly/cute!!!! I wanna give him a big old kiss! Aww I am so sorry you miss your best friend 😦 I totally understand how you feel, my BF lives in California, I am in NY….Waaa!!

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