trying to hold on the past

i don’t know why ever since he left, i’ve been trying to hold on to the past. i was led to believe that maybe i can go after him there. crazy. it went on for about a couple of months but good thing i managed to move on and relieve myself of the shock that we no longer belong to the same island.

checked his friendster and found out he’s in a relationship. what can i do? i couldn’t even keep him while he was here, how much more that he’s miles away from me. but it’s weird how i still get to think of him everyday. even with the littlest things. it’s not those tingly memories. just random things that relate to him. and for all we know, i don’t really know the guy anymore. it’s been years since we broke up.

maybe i try to hold to the past to keep me sane. to remind me that i did have something special with someone. that i was once not alone. i’m sure this is unhealthy. but what else can i do with the memories but hold on to them.

thnks fr th mmrs

it’s difficult when we become attached to something and somewhat expect it to be always there. we were on a good ride. i was at peace. and i thought it would always be there. until i woke up one morning and realized i don’t own it. i don’t own him.

the stars on that dark night. the smell of the sea breeze at dawn. the wind on my face. the sand on our feet. the wind messing up my hair. singing along to our favorite songs. pinches on my face. the sight of the sunrise on the way home.

thanks for the memories.