trying to hold on the past

i don’t know why ever since he left, i’ve been trying to hold on to the past. i was led to believe that maybe i can go after him there. crazy. it went on for about a couple of months but good thing i managed to move on and relieve myself of the shock that we no longer belong to the same island.

checked his friendster and found out he’s in a relationship. what can i do? i couldn’t even keep him while he was here, how much more that he’s miles away from me. but it’s weird how i still get to think of him everyday. even with the littlest things. it’s not those tingly memories. just random things that relate to him. and for all we know, i don’t really know the guy anymore. it’s been years since we broke up.

maybe i try to hold to the past to keep me sane. to remind me that i did have something special with someone. that i was once not alone. i’m sure this is unhealthy. but what else can i do with the memories but hold on to them.

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Hi, my name is Gizelle Faye. I am an artist, florist, stylist, calligrapher, letterer, mum, and wife to Harry. I am a bohemian risk-taker who fell in love with an old soul. Three months before our wedding in 2012, I went cuckoo and left my corporate job to pursue my dreams and founded Cuckoo Cloud Concepts. For about a decade, I was the creative director of Cuckoo Cloud Concepts, dreaming up unforgettable and picture-perfect moments from a tropical island called Cebu. I specialized and honed my skills in photo shoot styling, product styling, floristry, calligraphy, and lettering. During the pandemic, I rediscovered my love for painting amidst the dark times. The universe proved a lot more cuckoo than me and sent me and my family on a journey that will find us in Camden, New South Wales. But I vow to always bloom where I am planted. Today, in this new city, I host art workshops and offer social media content styling and creation, and other creative services for small businesses. Here, you will find an archive of my paintings and other works of art inspired by nature, scenes, architecture, and BTS, as well as art events I run in different venues in Sydney.